Nunca acreditei que pudesse encontrar amor num site de encontros. Mas dada a minha solidão na aldeia, tentei um que une senhoras tailandesas com senhores, na sua maioria, estrangeiros. Após dois ou três contactos sem grande desenvolvimento, desisti. Passados uns dias recebi uma mensagem de uma senhora de 39 anos, bonita e apenas com 1,50m. Atraiu-lhe o facto de ser voluntário e gostar de aldeias. Ela é enfermeira mas não muito feliz com a sua vida. Também prefere a aldeia.
Mantivemos conversas diárias e até marcámos férias juntos numa ilha do sul da Tailândia. Uma loucura! Sem saber o que poderia acontecer, o seu acompanhamento dava-me uma certa felicidade e esperança em algo que me parecia difícil.
Depois de ter estado nas quintas, ter aprendido coisas fantásticas e conhecido gente boa, que me dão esperança para o futuro, fui ter um fim de semana com a Miss Coke (como lhe vou chamar). Apesar de termos alugado um quarto com camas separadas, as coisas desenvolveram-se muito depressa. Foi bom ter novamente o toque de quem cuida, mas assim que me despedi dela e voltei para Ban Kuat, um vazio e uma tristeza inundaram-me por dentro. Ela diz que penso muito. E tem razão. Penso, escrevo e acho que também sinto muito.
O que nos levou a encontrar não foi amor. Eu talvez carência, ela, talvez o desejo enorme de ter um namorado ocidental. Tanta diferença. Esperança de futuro zero e ainda umas férias por partilhar.
Não vivo os melhores momentos mas tenho que pensar no sorriso dos meus alunos. Continuo a acumular experiências, a vida decorre e a algum lugar me há de levar.
I never believed I could find love on a dating site. But with my loneliness in the village, I tried one that gathers Thai ladies with mostly foreign men. After two or three contacts without great development, I gave up. After a few days I received a message from a beautiful 39-year-old lady and only 1,50 m tall. It attracted her the fact that I'm a volunteer and fan of villages. She's a nurse but doesn't seem very happy with her life. She also prefers the village.
We held daily conversations and we even planned some holidays together on an island in southern Thailand. Crazy! Without knowing what might happen, her accompaniment gave me a certain happiness and hope in something that seemed difficult to me here.
After having been in the farms, learning fantastic things and knowning good people that give me hope for the future, I went to have a weekend with Miss Coke (as I will call her). Although we rented a room with separate beds, things developed very quickly. It was good to have the caretaker's touch again, but as soon as I said goodbye to her and went back to Bankuat, an emptiness and sadness flooded me inside. She says I think a lot. Yes, she's right. I think, write and I think I also feel too much.
What led us to meet each other wasn't love. I, perhaps the need, and she, perhaps the huge desire to have a western boyfriend. So much difference. Zero hope for the future and still some vacations to share.
I don't live the best moments but I have to think in the smile of my students. I continue to accumulate experiences, life happens and somewhere it will take me.
O que nos levou a encontrar não foi amor. Eu talvez carência, ela, talvez o desejo enorme de ter um namorado ocidental. Tanta diferença. Esperança de futuro zero e ainda umas férias por partilhar.
Não vivo os melhores momentos mas tenho que pensar no sorriso dos meus alunos. Continuo a acumular experiências, a vida decorre e a algum lugar me há de levar.
I never believed I could find love on a dating site. But with my loneliness in the village, I tried one that gathers Thai ladies with mostly foreign men. After two or three contacts without great development, I gave up. After a few days I received a message from a beautiful 39-year-old lady and only 1,50 m tall. It attracted her the fact that I'm a volunteer and fan of villages. She's a nurse but doesn't seem very happy with her life. She also prefers the village.
We held daily conversations and we even planned some holidays together on an island in southern Thailand. Crazy! Without knowing what might happen, her accompaniment gave me a certain happiness and hope in something that seemed difficult to me here.
After having been in the farms, learning fantastic things and knowning good people that give me hope for the future, I went to have a weekend with Miss Coke (as I will call her). Although we rented a room with separate beds, things developed very quickly. It was good to have the caretaker's touch again, but as soon as I said goodbye to her and went back to Bankuat, an emptiness and sadness flooded me inside. She says I think a lot. Yes, she's right. I think, write and I think I also feel too much.
What led us to meet each other wasn't love. I, perhaps the need, and she, perhaps the huge desire to have a western boyfriend. So much difference. Zero hope for the future and still some vacations to share.
I don't live the best moments but I have to think in the smile of my students. I continue to accumulate experiences, life happens and somewhere it will take me.
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